what if you were like abused as a child and then you grow up to study kabbalah and the person who abused you shows up in the group… is it okay to avoid that person or do you like have to forgive them?
i asked about this before and i tried to think about it for a while but i want to be more specific about what bothers me. it’s about how laitman wants censorship laws. if we censor people, who and how does one decide what things can be censored and what things can’t be? my main problem is that i can’t stop thinking of how i expected laitman to say something more like “on this level we fight and all the things we do on this level, but that the goal is something above that, that does not change the lower level things.” you know what i mean? why does he think we can’t defend ourselves in this way?
i have no idea. i’m very confused. after i study it i tell myself it’s important, but then later i completely forget why. i can’t seem to come up with a way of reminding myself why i should do it.
what are my expectations? i have no idea. i’m just doing it because i remember telling myself to do it.