I was looking for fullfillment and a purpose in this life. I continue to study because even when it feels fruitless, I do not believe it will always be so.
I will not say that I understand what he writes. I can relate to the experience of the vast distance between Him and me. When even the basic joys of life leave you wanting, how does one practically ask for help?
There is a huge gap between who I am and what we are aspiring to be. The further along this journey, the more I have been shown how selfish I am. I want to experience that unrequitted joy again and again. I must want that for everyone; I am learning to want that.