I left religion because I was required to be and react like everyone else. Never mind that I grew up in a violent home with verbal and physical abuse. Never mind that I was socialized with lies and a distorted view of everything. I was still required to be socially adequate with perfect manners because now I had received Jesus. I found different versions of that in all the paths I have tried to follow. Kabbalah is the first path I have found which says, you know what? That is part of you. You can’t change it. The creator will set up a new environment for you to help you work on those issues. Turns out I don’t even need to change my environment on my own! I believe it. I embrace it. I am hopeful.
I like the part about our ignorance. I truly, really, seriously don’t know anything and understand nothing. The more aware I become, the more I see the business of this world as fake. I am becoming cynical about everything. I feel everybody is trying to sell me stuff or trying to convince of something. Is this normal or is it me going crazy given the current state of the world?
I can chose to live by spiritual principles and values. Or I can choose to live by the dictates of my ego. Those are my choices! If I choose to follow the guidance of the Light I am helped every step of the way. If I chose to live by ego, I am choosing the path of suffering.
I don’t know how I can feel it. You tell me 🙂 However, it is comforting to know that there is no devil or demons or a spiritual warfare as fundamentalist Christianity teaches. To me it means that there is no evil only lessons and experiences dictated by the Creator’s curriculum. And that gives me comfort.