[Cyndi]

Thank you I will read this

[Cyndi]

I realize I have no understanding -I don’t even understand if I have entered this course with the right intention, maybe I only entered it out of fear of death. The ego can be so sly, I wish to know how to pray for understanding but I realize I don’t know how to pray, because prior to studying Kabbalah was I spiritually dead? Will the Creator hear any prayer from the spiritually dead? Does one pray the way we were taught in Christianity? How does one pray? The more I try to know, the more I don’t know. I try to pray the Ana Bekoach because I feel I don’t know how to do a ‘regular’ prayer anymore, so I thought, maybe I just need to say this prayer, but when I try, I just inexplicably cry and not with tears of joy. In fact, as I continue on in this course, I keep feeling emotional, like I will never have understanding, nor altruism.

[Cyndi]

I don’t really understand how I can develop my sixth sense or how I will recognize that I am doing things right –

[Cyndi]

I kept thinking about ‘Jacobs Ladder’ during this discussion of the ladder to the higher worlds

[Cyndi]

The point in the heart – the potential to grow a vessel

I thought I already had a vessel, that I needed to become more in tune with Creator to let more light in, but now I realize I have the potential for a vessel, it has to be grown

[Cyndi]

Hello-

My name is Cynthia-

I work up in the Canadian Arctic for long periods at a time –

I hope this course will give me understanding to grow my vessel

[Author]

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