I want to understand why a creator who wants us to only have abundant life allows such terrible disasters as the earthquake in Turkey or the Ukrane war. I am not trying to be difficult, I really, really really want to know how to understand how the Creator allows so much unhappiness and pain in the world.
I have seen how my huge ego and self-importance has been such a stumbling block to my spiritual development. I see that the Creator is constantly bestowing light on me but I reject much of it in favor of my own stubborn opinion. I also see that when I give advice and it is rejected or ignored I feel bad inside and it causes me to wonder that if I want a relationship with the Creator, how must He feel when I ignore His bestowal freely given.