<p style=”text-align: center;”>I understand this perfectly and love it because it all makes sense in my life.</p>
But how can we say then that Malchut’s decision was independent while all the Behinot before were only operations of the creator?
<p style=”text-align: center;”>Only by studying the sources. I have heard it many times in different religions and currents, but they only recite these words without accepting their implications. Only here at this place we accept and emphasize the full meaning of these words without rationalizing it away.</p>
What blows my mind is not exactly the lesson itself, but how I am being brought back here in a strange loop. I remember that i was in an internet cafe “in front of a computer screen”, “in love”, “in pain”, “on a planet”, “sitting on a chair”, and I don’t really know what kind of google search brought me there but i remember that it was motivated by searching for the reasons why all of these things happen to me. And i took a lot of time to catch up with the materials and needed 2 years to finally feel that I was in an environment. I guess that I still didn’t really understand why I was doing all these things and just enjoyed this new kind of company like “love of fish”. So I lost it and 5 years passed. Things didn’t get better on this planet and in my life, but worse, but now comes what blows my mind: You make me understand how my egoism caused corona and why I had to return here again.
Ok from this I understand that the Ohr Makif are the lights which didn’t enter the Guf. Then this would mean that in Galgalta there is no Ohr Makif since the whole NRNHY entered.
I’m still confused between two possible answers of what Ohr Makif could mean.
Ok I want to rephrase in order to clarify, I hope i don’t sound too repetitive:
We use all 5 Kelim here from Keter to Hochmah in the Rosh, but everywhere just a little bit, so that the whole sum of NRNHY is just like for example 20% of what it could be, if the Masach was not so soft as it is at the moment.