In one of the videos, Julian said that inside the group students are going to experience ups and downs, that problems will occur, that everyone has to participate in order to work. He also said that in the process one is going to experience darkeness and then even more darkeness. My questions are:
1- What kind of problems can arise in a kabbalist group? Disagreements about wisdom? About the Kabbalistic texts?
2-He also said that we only evolve spiritually if we participate actively in the group, “through the clash of Points in the Heart”. How is that?
3-This experience of darkeness that he talks about could affect one’s physical/mental health?
I sense many of things Julian said about the ego, connection to others, bestowal are so familiar to me. I feel like I’m relearning a wisdom once forgotten, but with other words. I recall moments of my life where I caught myself thinking about these issues long before I came into contact with Kabbalah. Maybe it’s always been there, hidden, and now it’s coming out. Crazy, huh?
1- It inspires me to have this gift (the point in the heart) given by the Creator in this generation, and be able to correct my inner qualities and help the world to be a better place for all.
2- I learned that the political activism I’ve been involved in the last few years wasn’t the effective way to see the changes I wanted to see. Kabbalah shows me now that it’s an internal work, not external.
3- I wish my fellow students all the best and to join me in the spiritual journey. We have a lot of work to do!