The person I love does not receive from me what she wants or as much as she wants. I guess I’m not able to give it to her. She thinks she’s giving me a lot, but I don’t feel like that’s what I need or want. That is why we receive from each other what we do not enjoy. One could say cause and effect, but to me this looks like a story about a grandmother who feeds her full grandson.
How to give more than you think you can, how to dissolve your ego and stop thinking about self and stop wanting what makes you happy? What if what you are giving is not what that person wants or is looking for?
I am in position in my life where I don’t think that life has some meaning. So, I would like to know more about kabbalahs teaching and maybe find some meaning of life.