[paula]

The goal for my studies is to know and experience the creator in all  do, say and be in this world.  I wish for all my fellow students to attain their highest goals.

[paula]

Thank you everyone for all the questions and input.  I am struck by the magnitude of the “idea” of free will vs the actual reality of free will.  I have often felt throughout my life a “powerlessness” to change certain situations no matter what I did, and with the best “will” in the world I was still unable to change.  Of course on reflection I was nearly always trying to change others, situations or things to my way of thinking or viewpoint.

I now understand why it was so exhausting, mentally draining and pointless.

I hope I remember it for next time.

Thanks

[paula]

freedom relates to a choice.

[paula]

The previous course has helped me to take a helicopter view on my life and the forces behind what is driving my choices in life.

[paula]

I have been reflecting over some of the most painful and difficult times in my life through the lens of lesson one.  I suppose in some way it gives a new meaning to suffering, a new way of seeing the darkness and aloneness.  I am slowly coming to believe in a bigger plan to all of this.

I am not sure yet if I am angry with the nature of suffering, war, exploitation, abuse and trauma in the world as a means of correction.  I know I am talking about the collective now, but surely there is another way other than suffering to awaken us.

I am slowly coming to believe!!

[paula]

In this moment I feel that sensation as a force of illumination that invigorates infuses my being.  I have begun to notice that when I am connected with others in trying to achieve this together I feel it more.

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