Lately I been concerned with the path of suffering, I understand that in order to know something we have to find the opposite so by way of the contrast we learn its true nature. Last year for me was very trying and I think in a way it guide me here. So I think I have my share of unpleasant times, but also I have really nice experiences lately and every time I doubt or question my purpose I remember Tony Kosinec talk about Shamati “There is none else beside him” and that concept clears my mind.
Well I listen to both audio clips on the reading of the Zohar and didn’t experience nothing different in my listening between them, maybe I did, but to be honest I think I was expecting something, so I don’t know if it was my imagination. A little bit later, perhaps ten or fifteen minutes I start thinking about stopping seriously all this learning experience, it wasn’t an idea it was more like a conviction beyond any reasoning, very different from my other doubts.
I think in one lesson we learnt that if I love my friends and work with them we will share a greater vessel for the light to fill and we will grow spiritually faster.
We attract the light when we read authentic kabbalistic texts. Create the right environment and are lead by a teacher. I believe our work is to stay in the path.