Really so like the descents is when a person chooses lower pleasures (but he might don’t know that it is lower) and the ascents when we choose higher ones..? So is there a list of higher-lower pleasures that Kabbalist wrote like compassion is more preferable than justice, forgiveness than sacrifice, love than doing good, romance than sex, creativity than smartness etc.?
I remember reading that the measure of godliness in a person is his success/happiness but also that feeling lower than the majority..? I don’t understand.
I guess i know why im suffering all this time, in the past few years I didn’t give as if giving before the recipient tell me they want it I didn’t give it because lest they didn’t want what I’m trying to give, now I give pleasure even when they haven’t tell me if they want it or not