Don’t think of Creator as a presence. Feeling should come from attention. If you see reality as a chain of mechanical events, it’s hard to feel a Creator behind it, but if you look at reality as interconnected, constantly unfolding in a way you did not plan. Everything becomes more intuitive. Stop controlling everything. When you loosen your grip, you start to feel the larger movement behind things. A movement arising from a deeper source,
This involves process of inner exploration while listening for wisdom stirrings in present moment.
I attune myself to experience of my reality.
I no longer just rush through my day. I now treat every event or situation as an opportunity to talk and listen to the Creator. I watch for creators actions as if looking through a magnifying lens. Noticing details in nature and in the strangers.
I finally found a forum of like minded people, where thoughts and ideas can be shared. My unanswered questions no longer rattle in my head.
Studying Kaballah is like treasure hunt, something new behind new door. It opens a new door within me to pause and reflect how I live and see my life and world around me. Everyday I look forward to new readings.