I am looking to reawaken a connection that I had but seems to have faded. I want anything that will turn the volume back up on that connection. If this lesson can move me in that direction it will have been a success.
My name is Michael. I am 41 years old. I have some background in another esoteric tradition and community. However, I now believe that Kabbalah is a far more complete system and lays at the root of what I had been studying.
In 2017 I did an exercise based on the old YouTube Kab-U videos (to experience pleasure not for my own enjoyment but for the creator to enjoy). I can not explain what it did for me, but it certainly brought me into a state of true faith (perhaps for the first time in my life).
Unfortunately, I have not been able to recreate that experience since, and the result is a feeling that something is lacking.
I am in the course in order to get back on track. I am very hopeful.