I feel if I let go of choosing and allow the changes whether up or down to just happen and receive the experiences to change and grow me up, then there’s no free will. In addition, some things are written in pen and some things are written in ink. The wisdom to except it all and allow is free and willing within itself pass the illusion. It’s not me controlling anything. It’s all in ALL that’s giving everything as I allow and receive to grow while operating from my heart. Becoming selfless leaves me with no choice, only acting upon which is, IS.