Somehow I’m confused by the question. When you say ‘what does it mean’, do you mean how does it feel, or what do the books say, or what do I imagine it would be like? I have only ever known reality from an egoic perspective, I can’t imagine any other reality than the one I know or one based on the things I know.
I don’t know what I want, I can’t visualise or get a sense of it. However I have a deep compulsive feeling of curiosity and a need to explore the mind, the spiritual realm, who or what I am, and all those other conventionally unanswerable questions.
Whatever I find on the journey is fine, all of it is fascinating!