I wish that your desire to become ONE is burning. I wish that you know you DO have the time and resources to study and be able to rest in that without anxiety and with peace and strength that everything you need is always being bestowed upon you by the Creator
When I was very young, about 5, I asked my mother how we know if the red in the tiles on the kitchen floor that I saw was the same as she saw it. She didn’t understand my question. It seems in a way I was asking a very deep question as a child that now appears to be true as mentioned in this video. Our perceptions of what we believe is reality may not be the same. Yet somehow we arrive at a consensus. And we need to get above these perceptions to actually know the truth.