I tend to read first all of the questions and comments to observe the similarity between them and my own. The question of Yana about how come when it feels that you want most of the Creator; it feels further away. It makes a lot of sense the answer that Albert provided “This is done to help us to grow and develop” and the example of -when we teach our kids to walk-.
When I desire for Him more, I feel desperation and lost like I cannot see clearly. It is like fear of leaving behind what is known, what is familiar, the ways of my past survival.
In the observation of the question the answer that run through my mind was the ocean and the animals in the ocean; the animals in the ocean can not live without the ocean or outside of the ocean and the ocean can not live without the fishes in the ocean.
It has changed; I can clearly see that now, It started completely with a selfish motive; which it was to get access to a life of abundance, happiness, and prosperity for my own good.
But now I am studying Kabbalah with the goal to learn how to be: love, joy, peace, patient, kind, good, faithful, gentle and have self-control. And put this at the benefit of others.
Freedom is the separation from the internal domination or despotic control of self-absorption; is the alignment with the eternal altruistic system. And the way to acquire is by surrender to the authority of the Reforming Light.
Hi Seth, your answer to Kyler responds to my question and your recommendation to Bartosz; I have been implementing since I found the YouTube materials.