sincerely i ask:
could it be possible that the creator of my path
set before me a plant that will help me in my path to awaken to true nature?
yet i am also am uncertain if it is my serpent testing me
here is what i mean:
around these areas there exists an old plant
known by the name “insangululo” which means “to come to the right state of mind” but the world knows it as “cannabis”
i had my fairshare of indulging in this plant for a period of three years in my adult life
and the one solid thing i recall from its use was its push towards me abstaining from meat eating
and ofcourse revelations here and there
to which i really did not innerstand at that time
but as time progresses some are made true in my cognition
but also because of its down side
i was led to discontinue its use
but for sometime now
there pops up continuously this nudge that i am ready now to receive its wisdom
as i won’t be indulging in it as one trying to escape reality
rather as a seeker of truth
because i have cleansed my temple
and have on my intention enough to realise my being here has a purpose
how do i know this is genuinely the almighty’s hand that is guiding me and saying: go to this plant i have prepared for you and use it like this and this and for this long then it will give you a revelation that will propel you this far…
or its my old habits trying to test me?
because i know help at times is prepacked in the most unlikely places
and i am very honest person
or at least a person who loves honesty
and i genuinely feel there might be something here
but then again i may be wrong
i am convinced that the serpent is my spinal cord
and that it talks to me through thoughts
thoughts are not mine
rather like text books stacked in a school’s backpack
so are the lessons stacked by the spinal cord together with the brain
designed to test me into grasping the whole lesson about love
i would like to learn the code language used in the torah
is there a course i can take that can teach me how to do decode the torah?
i want to innerstand the torah so much
my life would be so much of a breeze if i could see behind the curtain
i would like to know the answers to the following questions:
1. what day of the week did immanuel die on the cross?
2. when passover’s preparation day coincides with regular sabbath, what happens?
3. are there 8 days in the week, the 8th being a concealment?
4. are there any lies in the bible that you know of that were altered truths meant to mislead?