Maybe I will once I’ve done a lot of work. I’d like to study Hebrew and read the texts in Hebrew. I need to forgive a lot of people, including my ego. I need to polish my Kli so it absorbs the loving energy of the Creator and hopefully reflects some loving energy back.
This will take the rest of my life, and I thank the Creator for this gift of true pure purpose. I’ve never been happier.
I’d like to thank Kabbalists, who came before me, for putting such tremendous effort into ascertaining a path to the Light. I can’t express the relief it is to begin to learn these concepts. I have much work to do.
I start each day with recognizing my breath. I perceive my inhale as a gift from Hashem. My exhale I give back. When I feel anxious, I return to the breathing, thinking “Ha” for the inhale, and “Shem” for the exhale.
I don’t think I can progress in Kabbalah in an anxious state.
About 6 months ago I “prayed” for wisdom. I felt that the world had become so dumbed-down, in politics, in culture. I was sickened by violence, school shootings, and hatred, especially racism.
About 4 weeks ago, I saw a TikTok by Reb Adam Polinovskiy where he summarized that “Spirituality is Giving״. That was an a-ha moment for me. It resonated so deeply, I decided to learn about Judaism, which immediately lead to Kabbalah.
I mention this now because of the importance of intention. I not so much prayed for wisdom, as it was my intention to find it, hopefully. I can’t help believe it was a coincidence I learned of Kaballah. I see some light from the darkness of my Kli. Thank you.