Gaining a sense that there is indeed a force behind creation, and that progress consists of taking steps to align yourself with this. I feel like it’s very, very early days, though. Still so many steps along the path and up the ladder.
It’s only been a few weeks, but I’ve started to put together the pieces of the jigsaw, about my own ego and its journey towards sensing and recognising the Light. There’s still a long, long way to go!
The perception of a reality which underpins. grounds and sustains the physical world of creation. It might only be a faint glimmer, but I’d like to perceive it in order to be certain that it exists.
I’m struggling with a few things. I have to say that I don’t come from a Jewish or Christian background, and I’ve always struggled with the concept of an anthropomorphic personal God, although I do believe that a Force, or Light, or Ground of Being exists (and I’ve also experienced some evidence that life continues after death, but that’s an issue for another time). So, here are my questions:
1. I’m assuming that we cannot know why the Creator created creation, not what existed before Creation, nor who created the Creator. The Creator, being infinite, cannot be fully understood by ourselves as finite beings. Is this correct? Yet the question in me persists. It simply doesn’t make sense why ‘anything’ exists at all. If the question can never be really answered, why do I continue to ask it?!
2. If the Creator is infinite and self-sustaining, why were we created as egoistic beings – in direct opposition to a Being of pure bestowal – who must then descend and then ascend a ladder. Why not just create us as fully able to perceive the Creator in the first place? Why this descent and ascent? Why this veiling from ultimate reality?
3. I also can’t get my head around the shattering of the unified souls into individual souls. How can anyone really know that this actually happened? And why did it happen? Or do we just have to accept that it did, on faith, and that we’ll never really understand fully if or why? What’s the evidence for it?
I’d like to know how kabbalah can help me be more in tune with my life, and to understand how my own life is rooted in the whole of creation, rather than an ego separate from it.