Well, the world around us seems to be getting worse, immediacy is one way to strengthen the influence but certainly is not the best. I think we can build a desire to want this desire. 🙂
Really my only goal is to reach that ultimate goal. Surely I cannot do this by myself however, so I must allow others to help me and in doing so, maybe we all can reach that goal.
Confirmation? What if I have somehow already attained some level of spirituality? My goal is to confirm what I have experienced. This goal has sort of evolved to study Kabbalah to “do the work” rather than to attain the goal having done the work. My question is not so much “Why am I here?” but rather “Why I am STILL here?” xD