The ego is way too much a “good” Pharoah over us for us to hate it. But eventually we see all its councils as bad, and start to go against nature. Away from the ego and toward connection is nevertheless toward spirituality.
I missed this somehow. I’m glad you got an answer but I’ll answer anyway.
Bestowing to the Upper Force doesn’t have a ‘look’ because bestowal is only in the intention. There are things a Kabbalist would do, and conversely, which I should do already if I want to become a Kabbalist. Essentially it’s delving into Kabbalistic studies whenever possible and trying to realize what I learn from them. These invite the Upper Light to sculpt my intention through which I can bestow. By no other means can I bestow to the Upper Force since it already has everything and only wants to give.
Because we’re in a big interconnected system, and each of us is built differently on the inside, so at this time my unique desire is needed for the whole system, to perform a certain function. My awakening depends on that; to what extent I realize the awakening depends on my free choice.
No, if I rise to the Upper World I’ll understand what’s going on in our world; and if I don’t, I can only make speculations, more or less informed ones.