I guess I’m getting hung up on some of the language used here. Kabbalah has nothing to do with mysticism? My definition of mysticism is that in entails a direct experience of the Creator. Does Kabbalah not do this through teaching the student how to correct the Tikune? Perhaps I am getting hung up on definitions.
After studying Kabbalah for over a year now I came across Tony’s lectures on Youtube. Kabbalah confirms my existing beliefs about God and my relationship to God. I find connection to creator through daily prayer, meditation and ceremonial magick. And have most recently been very drawn to Hermeticism, Gnosticism, and Kabbalah.
My spiritual awakening happened 6 years ago when I hit bottom with alcohol and my other addiction. I have been sober and healing ever since. Each layer I shed of my ancestral trauma seems to get me closer to the truth which is that all things are connected.
In the last year, I have a had a very strong desire to know god so that I can be more like god in my actions, thoughts, and feelings. This desire is stronger than anything else in my life and has led me to Kabbalah and to this message board. 🙂