Is the middle line like a sensation? a type of sensation that we never feel in our day to day life?
The way I understood the description is that it’s a little bit like doing something you don’t really want to do, but you do it anyway because it’s the right thing to do.
When I hear about some of the absolutely disgusting tortures and sufferings that humans have inflicted upon one another, I find it really hard to believe that God Himself is the torturer. I find it much easier to believe that we were given the choice between ‘good and evil’ and that some people choose selfish evil acts.
I also don’t like the idea of me doing something selfish and regrettable, and not owning up to it as my mistake. It doesn’t feel right saying that my mistake is God’s mistake, especially in the moment. It’s like I’m using God as a scapegoat.
If a person, say a high level Kabbalist who has attained bestowal, looks at the world, does he/she see only goodness? Or do they have to wait for the rest of humanity to attain bestowal before all the bad things we endure no longer exist? Or does the Kabbalist see the same things we see, violence, illness, suffering, but sees it all differently, sees that, although painful, it’s necessary for our growth.