I understand (so far) that my free will is on the boundary that separate my will to receive and my will to bestowal. it is a illusion when I am working in receiving to myself (what is my reality), it is Real when I am working in bestowal (what is the opposite of my reality). The Divine Paradox!
trying to do our best in accordance with what love teaches you. Respect your neighbor as you wish to be respected. Maybe later on this respect turn to be love.