I can feel the Creator easily when i see the big picture, biology, astronomy, physics, even psychology…but is very difficult grasping the concept that he is behind my procrastination, my inability to be better person. That is a goal of my life, be an instrument of his goodness, but i end failing and doing what i do not want. Some days i feel hopeless… It is this feelings part of His plan?
I believe that a true prayer is when I admit my powerlessness to manage my life, that when feeling hopeless look at our creator and give my will and life to him knowing i am unable to do it without his help.
Everything is connected, I see it in Nature, I feel i am part of my surroundings as trees, birds, ants, rocks, air, starts, clouds…I feel awe, love and a sense of being safe just here and now. I sense something bigger than my poor perception is developing . I cannot see it, but i feel it.
My best experience with the first course was discovering the meaning of past live events as part of a bigger plan. Being part of the KabU community with the same purpose.
To the most complete sense reality i could perceive studying Kabbalah, having a group with the same intentions, and the help of my Creator, for whom my soul is yearning.
Sharing my experience in the journey, learning also from the experiences of the people in my group. Each day analyzing my feelings , Being grateful for the gifts of the creator and work in my intentions to imitate his attributes …