I feel freer. Know when i feel a desire, anyone, i stop and ask myself? Egoistic? With intention to bestow? I decided i want to bestow, so i stop making excuses to myself to act egoistic and discovered a new pleasure in the thing i was avoiding before . Know is “my lab” analyze all the desires i have.
I realize my life has purpose and the way to fulfill my purpose is work to be concious of my feelings and desires and have the intention of receive to bestow grow with faith in the creators plan
I am eager to learn more, but the most i learn, more confused i get. I am having vivid weard dreams that i try to interpreted with the knowledge i think i am getting . They are related to my past. It is correct to try to interpreted my egoism over past occurances and how how it affect others?
I realize my perception of reality is unique, and the same happens with ith every one. My husband lives in a different reality that me. That is my aha moment.