I suppose my only question is old an cliche, but I don’t understand the paradox or mystery of free will and determinism. Looking at a newborn baby is probably helpful, ey? Lol.
I have a functional-drinking habit and hide it quite well. My intention is to get closer to G-d as there is nothing else worthwhile eternally-minded-wise. There is other happier stuff going on in my life but I’d prefer not to mention such things unless asked directly by a human.