On the human level before the speaking level, the humans are dependent on each other for their life. Even though the can move freely and can mate anytime etc they are controlled by the money they get or have to work for money that society created and other people make war and destroy life or give a child to make a life etc but they still depend on each other on the existence of their life?
Do all of the lessons in this course and the previous course have essential take away points that can revise, correct or clarify my previous ideas about each subject? Do I need to really make sure the ideas I have are correct and completely match what each subject is teaching me?
The goal is to find a way to develop a true desire to make a real prayer from the bottom of the heart for the Creator to help, so not to remain as a child and become an adult, or to become a man and not remain as a beast.
If the reforming light is what helps a person acquire freedom, then the freedom is gained by asking for the vessels of bestowal. The reforming light creates a desire and need to ask the Creator for vessels of bestowal. Freedom is in the vessels of bestowal because the abundance never dies. The freedom from the angel of death.
The feeling to me is not constant but it seems to be a feeling like letting go and floating on whatever the waves in the ocean will take me because if there is other forces other than the Creator, then I will say they have the power to to things in the world, but if I say the Creator is doing these things He seems close and is playing with me but He is looking for my acknowledgment of Him also, and this brings Him contentment, I believe. The more I study kabbalah the more I feel this idea is changing into something else more focused though.