I do feel like reality is the product of my own perception. But as the blows from Nature have intensified in my life and my reality at times has felt unbearable, I was drawn to quantum physics for an answer as a scientist. It brought me close, but not to an answer of what reality really is. Now I have found the place where I want to learn what reality is.
From what I understand so far, the way I can live my life to the fullest is to learn from the right Kabbalist teacher, read and learn from the books of the true Kabbalists, and be a part of a group that has the same desire, wanting to learn how to turn our Will to Receive into the Will to Bestow.
In my day to day life, until now, I assumed most of my life was due to my own free will. However, when the blows from Nature started intensifying in my life I had to find answers e.g. why is this happening to me? Who or what is responsible for what is happening in my life and finally,what is the meaning of my life? why am I here, what is my purpose in life? After studying KabU courses, it seems that I really have no free will, that there are forces and powers from the Upper Worlds that influence my life and the only free will I have is in choosing the right environment and friends. The Group.
Something new I discovered in Kabbalah is that my progress in the method of the Kabbalah is through my friends, a group. I depend on them and they depend on me.
The greatest thing I wish to achieve is to learn how change my intention in the Will to Receive to one of Bestowal, to bring joy to the Creator, to become like the Creator.
By asking for my correction from the Creator. To understand that “there is none else beside Him” and in My Will to Receive, all is good, but I will only understand that if I am corrected to be like the Creator.