What blew my mind was the video of the awakening and how so true it is. the only way to save our world is by correcting the ego and bestowal. Inside of me i knew this to be true. Also the term ´´ force of Arut´´ which each member has to the other in the grup of 10 made me think more of the responsibility and seriousness of being in a group.
When a member leaves the group of ten, what happens to that member? and what happens to the group? do they just continue or find someone new? or just wait until the lost sheep comes back?
I do not have one thing that has inspired me, i have Many things that have inspired me with Kabballah! It has been a rollercoaster of faith and doubt but still wanting more.
Past beliefs i had or rather grown up with has been turned upside down and thrown me into more deep thinking, questions within me. Sometimes i think am going mad, i say to myself and want to stop studying but there is this pull or point in the heart like a fire of love that i just want more. Like a lover heplessly inlove unconditionally.
I have learnt so much about myself like what i want in spirituality and what i do not want anymore, like the old false teachings. It is like eating bread, just bread till someone comes along and offers bread with butter,cheese and slices of tomatoes on that, wow! difficult to go back to ony bread isn´t it ? if i explain deeper it will take so much space here.
To my fellow students on this journey, yes it is a journey and a long one at that. i need you and you need me. Make up your minds to seek only the creator with a honest heart. Kabballah is showing us the way, give it all that you can, we will carry eachother and we will get there.