Perception is built. It is conditioned, limited, changing and relative. If I am to get in direct contact with the reality, my mind has to be corrected from its individual perspective.
Free will is just a sensation, since I’m always perceiving illusions. If only the truth exists, then there is no real alternative, so there’s no other option to choose. There are only alternative choices within the individual dreams.
By completing the previous 2 weeks, a new mindset is starting to get into my mind and a wish in my heart, that everytime I’m craving something, that is to say, everytime I’m feeling in lack of something, instead of rushing myself to the outside, looking for a remedy to appease that sensation, I wait and focus my will and my intention to the Creator, the Will of Bestowal, for fulfillment. It’s not that I succeed nor that I feel it; not yet, but it’s that now I know there’s another way, and I try to draw my mind to seek it by building a connection with the Nature Force, instead of looking for satisfaction in fleeting sources.
By studying Kabbalah we can alter our egoistic inner nature of wanting to receive only for my own benefit into bestowal, and it will make us more similar to the thought of the Creator, so we can transcend our perception of reality determined by our own interest alone and enlarge it until eventually our consciousness encompasses all that is and we can identify with the mind and the intention of bestowal of the Creator, we will become of the same quality than His.