Both were way to listen to. I immediately began seeing a vision with both. While the English version was like a guide to what I saw, the Hebrew version was much more impactful for me because the details of what I saw were clearer and there was nothing to guide me. It felt more real to me.
To me, it means to go from a “the world revolves around me” mentality to one that recognizes that we are all one and I am a part of the whole. When I receive from the bestower, I can bestow back to him and to others which in itself is a form of this infinite cycle of receiving and bestowing.
I have an insatiable desire to spend time with the Creator. So much so, that I get frustrated just dealing with everyday life, like work. I work with the public. My egoistic self gets impatient with others. I want to have a heart of bestowal like the creator so I treat others with love. Right now my heart is full of impatience. I hope this semester provides me with tools to help on that journey.
Best and most difficult experience from last course is the realization of ego and the intentions behind how I interact with others. I am hoping this course we’ll help see me on the road to changing that egoistic intention to one of bestowal.