My desire to be like the Creator has overtaken my other desires. It is all I think about. I find myself waking up in the middle of the night to study. I am not all that spiritual. I cannot explain this passion. One of my concerns is I do not really know who I am anymore. Is this ok.
I started reading the Zohar 18 months ago. I cannot say It’s reading has evoked a feeling in me; but, it has changed my DNA. I am not the same person. This may sound fantastic. I am not sure. My ego has changed. To a degree, I miss it. I work in a very, very ego centered industry. I feel a little naked and vulnerable. My decisions are different. I do not know where I fit in this world anymore.