It makes sense to me exactly as it was presented. I never thought of being equivalent with the creator before, so that is a new and elevated aspiration. For the rest, I take it simply as it was presented and shall work with it. Thank you
At this point I want to see where the Kabbalah leads. I don’t know the goal, but I am keen to see beyond where I am now because I have had the experiences that awaken me, and I want to pursue them and see if the Kabbalah draws me closer to them
One of the reasons this teaching is esoteric and was kept hidden, I believe, is that it is easy to misinterpret, if you want to do that, i.e. if that is where you really are. You could believe that there is nothing worthwhile to do physically in this world, to help people, to make and do things because it is all as we are told, in the inner world. So it is still dangerous and we need to be careful that in evolving our inner being we do not just use it as an excuse to be self centered and passive. We need to emphasize that we need to act in this world in order to allow our inner growth and development to take place.
Thank you Seth, I am sure that I shall go through some extensive personal changes in the process of studying the Kabbalah and these will in themselves change the way I experience and the way I see things. And thank you for your interest.
I see a pattern from early in my life of so many things pointing to despair as being the turning point, with complete submission: in Buddhism and the impossibility of the koan, in Alcoholics Anonymous, in Carlos Castenada. It is only when you give up that you are released, and yet it has to be giving up in the right way, recognizing the Creator in that submission. I have spent much time in despair but not yet learnt to yield to the creator. Perhaps this will lead me there.
I see it comparable to solipsism, but with a creator that is outside of my mind and feeds into my solipsistic experience. I do feel it as intimidating, a threat to my self that there is only the creator, but also reassuring that becoming one with the creator is a restoration of my own wholeness and the fulfilment of my life