I am still gaining a deeper understanding but this course is helping to be more conscious about my thought and actions and the thoughts and actions around me. I am seeing where my own thoughts and actions lend to my experience. This increased awareness is shedding light on so many things.
I was born and raised Jewish and learned from traditional books. I still attend services from time to time at Chabad and learned Tanya for a few years. I am not religious. I have looked for answers in many places such as Buddhism, Hinduism, New Age teachers such as Eckhart Tolle, etc. etc. but always come back to the same place of feeling like there is no point to life and what is my purpose. I do not mean this in the depressed way as I love life but sometimes it does feel pointless. I recently considered learning Chumash again from the lens of trying to discover the hidden meanings behind what seems to be a historical account with a pretty harsh G-d. I approached Kabbalah on multiple occasions but never committed. This time I am committed but am wondering if it would increase my understanding if I learned both Chumash and Kabbalah at the same time? I am tiered of not knowing and being lost. I want direction and purpose.