I have a burning desire for knowing the meaning of my existence and the existence of all other beings. I want to start the year 2022 by studying kabbalah, however, I find it hard to get committed to pursuing the wisdom. The pain of having no answer to the question of what is the meaning of life keeps bringing me back here. I wish I would study kabbalah in real life and devote the entirety of my time to studying it. If it truly is a wisdom that answers that question, one can’t do anything but sacrifice his life in it’s pursuit.
There is a fire in my heart that comforts me when I feel that I can’t pursue this knowledge due to problems that go beyond my control. How I wish to bend things to my desire in order for me to realize this goal.
It’s within me the light that guides and nurtures.