My problem is my intention and my baseline “Will to receive”. As I go through lessons on KabU, I find myself subconsciously thinking ” how can I use this knowledge to benefit myself in this physical world?”.
My biggest concern being that my “Will to receive” will prohibit me from ever getting close to the “Will to bestow” and eventually I get burned out and frustrated because of a lack of “advancement” in attaining Kabbalah.
Is there anything I can do with regards to my intention or will continuing my studies help me gradually get out of the “will to receive” and closer to the “will to bestow”?
From the “Attaining the world beyond” page 36 “It is for this form of human condition that this world and
the Higher Worlds were created.”
Which “human condition” is this referring to? Is it the complete sinner asking the Creator to break him free from egoism and hence becoming complete righteous?
So far, week 1 has been full of great experiences and often very emotional.
On the “Attaining the world beyond” page 12 paragraph 4 “… or recognize that our feelings are lacking regarding a particular issue. If the latter is the case, it is a crucial prerequisite for us to move forward spiritually.”
My interpretation is, if there is an issue in our life that we cannot describe how exactly we feel about it, the lack of feeling we have for that issue means we should move forward spiritually and understand those feelings.