I have learned that loving completely putting yourself last and others before you it opens your heart it cleanses your mind it sets you free. The hardest part is not giving in to the ego the bad voice and always listening to that soft voice I find my strength in silence and trust.
What I am trying to wrap my head around there’s nothing outside of me it is only a reflection in the mirror of my mind from the upper worlds my mind only gets in the way but I believe with my heart so I know this is true there’s something inside me that confirms the truth when it is spoken to me and I know in love that this is my creator that spark last sabbat my grandson of 5 years old moved in with me I am 59 years old and he is kind of a wild card but he acts very well with Grandpa my point is I really don’t know what I’m doing all I can do is be guided by love and give him what he needs and with saying that I am glad he is in the mirror in my head.
Shalom, I have noticed that I have been recognizing how I react in the urge inside my heart nudges me gently to think before my ego gets out of control and what I think of is love the love of the creator and I am that love and it’s not always easy all the time because the ego wants to have its way but I’m learning I have the control to make the choice to either love or to act out in a egotistical manner this course is a straightforward truth of how our creator would like us to live but then there’s that choice. the easy path of the ego makes it not so easy in the long run I’ve seen these things in my 60 years now it’s time to start listening to that Divine spark which is the voice of our Abba which is gentle and in the end results there’s true comfort thank you
Reshimot it keeps repeating these records. I don’t know how to stop reacting to them. For example I try to quit smoking I leave it or throw it in the trash and later or the next day I dig it back out. Is this what I’m thinking it is whatever it is it is something I feel separates me from our Abba. I am not sure how to deal with this it seems as if it is a character flaw extremely hard to overcome. Can you help me understand it’s not only with that one particular problem is with all my flaws