This is a statement, question, epiphany, and fear.
It took me 2 days to process my experience and this is what I deducted.
…………………………………
I was a little confused with the process of the graduate forum. So, I signed into a “workshop” which I was not prepare to undertake.
What I deducted from my inner self was quite frightening.
I saw myself! With all the ugly details and ego.
Of course I ran to hide from the world and myself…..
So, the questions….
Does everyone come to this realization?
If so, how does one push through?
For me pushing through my ego is quite shameful and embarrassing. This ego that lives within has a name: PTSD, the beast. It fights others with words to maintain it’s survival.
How does Kabu or does it…deal with this type of behavior?
I see my truth on the other side of the veil, but have never had anyone to stand with me as I push through…and I’ve always given myself an excuse to be a victim.
So, AGAIN I am at this crossroad.
How does one shed an Ego that is BIGGER than life itself. One that fights viciously to stay Alive?
Because it is clear to me that I am at a place of change or go home and I prefer not to go home!
This is a statement, question, epiphany, and fear.
It took me 2 days to process my experience and this is what I deducted.
…………………………………
I was a little confused with the process of the graduate forum. So, I signed into a “workshop” which I was not prepare to undertake.
What I deducted from my inner self was quite frightening.
I saw myself! With all the ugly details and ego.
Of course I ran to hide from the world and myself…..
So, the questions….
Does everyone come to this realization?
If so, how does one push through?
For me pushing through my ego is quite shameful and embarrassing. This ego that lives within has a name: PTSD, the beast. It fights others with words to maintain it’s survival.
How does Kabu or does it…deal with this type of behavior?
I see my truth on the other side of the veil, but have never had anyone to stand with me as I push through…and I’ve always given myself an excuse to be a victim.
So, AGAIN I am at this crossroad.
How does one shed an Ego that is BIGGER than life itself. One that fights viciously to stay Alive?
Because it is clear to me that I am at a place of change or go home and I prefer not to go home!