To continue to recognize my own ego boundaries and how they prevent me from seeing others as part of the whole. It’s difficult, it’s a moment-by-moment correction.
I feel that we are being directed – or led – to a state that in Zen would be called “enlightenment” or “awakening,” a state in which all is seen as the One Thing. I look forward to understanding how the Torah’s commandments will lead us to that state.
I have been wrestling with the concept of desire to bestow, and I think perhaps it is a language issue. I have had spiritual experiences, as I imagine everyone in this class has, and during the times that I feel most connected with the Creator, what I feel is a sense of emanation. I am emanating something – kindness, good will, some sort of desire for the good of everyone and anyone – but I never thought of it as “bestowal.” So are we talking about the same thing here, or am I totally off-track?