I can’t help it to be skeptic about this at my current state it seems really similar to relegious charity talk to me. I really expect it to be more than that or maybe it will make more sense to me later but what is actually faith above reason cause all I try to imagine seems like a faith beneath reason that you claimed it to be fanatism.
I hope that these feelings to just be a decent cause I’ve really felt being high spirited in my studies and some of it comes from the fact that in my minimalistic life all I can give is time and effort and since I’ve had financial help for this courses I had shame as a driving force to continue and I fear that this may not be enough.
By the desire to know the upper world and the opposite quality to us. Our mind and heart begins to search everywhere and when it delves into the authentic kabbalah texts, the right place to look for the reforming light comes to help the individual to reach that opposite quality that the person feels that exists. The quality that we alone can’t reach with out his help. For the desire to be fulfilled it must first reach to a large specific amount.
The environment of the people with the same desire grows each individuals desire.
It’s all about desire…
In the perception based on bestowl we are functioning as a gear in a whole machine. Whatever we feel is how to be one with the system that we perceive it’s interconnection. We feel it’s beauty and want to be a part of that beauty rather than taking control upon it or owning it.
I experienced a great sense of porpuse that gave me goosebumps many times while I was reading or watching videos.
I expect to feel that more deeply and get one step closer to have an environment or group that keep me more in the moods I get from engaging in this beautiful science and direct it in the right way.