To see me and the creator in my fellow. Looking into their smiles with eyes yearning for love and to love.
I am still the most egotistical person on the face of this planet. I have caused so much pain and destruction. Even my name in gematria reveals my worldly life and my lineage of war, and I believe my tikkun now is to learn peace and give peace.
I pray for all of you here to reach the goal of unity with your fellow and with our loving Creator
Ill be honest, even though I want more than anything to attain higher spirituality, The further I go in these lessons, the more I feel one major part of me that is so selfish and has been with me since my youth, that I either don’t want to let go of it or sometimes I feel too weak to let go of it. I start feeling anxiety because I feel as if I may have to give up that selfish part of me. I feel such a heavy pressing on me to succumb to this desire for corporeal pleasure even though I know it’s only temporary. At the same time it also brings me close to feelings of despair and unworthiness that I wont be able to change this one major part of me or that I wont come to a point that I want to let it go.
We should view reality as the Creator views it. Reality is The Creator’s love for us to reveal His love for us. So when we view all of reality as His goodness for us, we will come to want to be like Him. To be loving as He is loving. So we can be like our Abba/Imma. Scientifically speaking on a quantum level. If our observation of reality matches that of the Creator, we can change our reality and elevate it to its intended purpose. Ultimate intimacy with Him.